MotherlyBlessingsInMyLife: August 2012

Sunday, August 12, 2012

Why Motherhood?

I am a single Mom and have been most of my parenting years. I have one biological daughter and three adopted children. I have one child that came from me and three that came to me. There is no doubt that all of my chidlren are blessings from God. As far back as I can remember, I always wanted to be a Mom. My greatest joys, my deepest sorrows and the Biggest lessons I have learned in life have come from being a Mother. My children truly are the Blessings in my Life!

Since I was a young child, I have always had a need to nurture. The is no greater joy in life than to be able to help a living thing by providing nourishment and guidance so it can grow and develop. I knew from the age of four that I would grow up to be a Mom. My love of nurturing has led me down my career path as a Respiratory Therapist, has taught me the joy of gardening, encouraged my love for animals, fostered my love for cats and dogs, driven my need to have a pet, especially an Old English Sheepdog. I have learned to have a deep respect for mother nature and am constanly in awe of the beauty all around us that she has provided.

My desire to be a Mom is not something that I can logically explain. It was a desire that I felt deep inside. A choice that I felt driven by my heart to follow. After giving birth to my oldest daughter April, I was not able to give birth again. I did try and even lost one baby when I suffered a miscarriage. Though this loss was profound and deep, I knew that there was a reason and that God did have a plan for me. I followed my heart and my desire to be a Mom and God blessed me with three more children.

It is these motherly blessings that have inspired me to start this blog. I want to share my journey and to find purpose in all that happens as we face the joys and sorrows in life. To rejoice in the blessings we are given when a child is placed in our arms and our hearts and to make sense and find purpose in the pain we feel when a child has been ripped from our arms and our life. To find a way to heal from the loss and to feel joy in our hearts again.

My First Blessing

"Stinker Poo" is my oldest daughter who was my only blessing for 14 years. She had to endure being raised by a single parent and put up with all of my crazy yearnings for another baby. She is very quick witted and has never ceased to amaze me with her humor. She has a love of reading which definitely did not come from me. She has always taken her education seriously and worked hard at learning. She graduated high school as Valedictorian, got her BS from Texas A&M and her Master's from Univeristy of Texas at Dallas. She is currently teaching full-time and is working on her PhD. She is married and has followed her love of learning and teaches. From the day she was born she inspired me and she continues to be my inspiration each day.

My Second Blessing

"Bubba Doo" is my oldest son and the blessing I was afraid I would never have. After a miscarriage, failed third marriage, 13 unsuccessful inseminations and a failed legal risk foster placement I was thrilled to be able to foster Bubba Doo for his first 30 days of life. What started out to be a 30 day foster care stay turned into a six month stay. I was able to adopt him when he was 8 months old. He is the miracle that I thought I might never have. He is a joy to be around, loves hockey and football (especially the Utes) and always has a smile on his face.

My Third Blessing

"Ya Ya" is my youngest daughter. She has the same birth mom as Bubba Doo. I was so thrilled to learn that after so many years of wanting another child that I would now have two more children. Ya Ya had a rough start and had to overcome health and developmental delays. She has an incredible internal strength and I have learned the most from her. She has taught me to view life differently and to realize what is really important. She loves Littlest Pet Shops and Justin Bieber. She continues to amaze me with her strength and fortitude.

My Fourth Blessing

"Bugga Boo" is my youngest son and my baby. He was born at 36 weeks and weighed 5 lbs 13 ounces just like his oldest sister. He also shares Bubba Doo's and Ya Ya's birth Mom. I never in a million years anticipated that I would ever get a 4th blessing. Bugga Boo is a very smart boy. He loves Legos, transformers and building things. He can be quick to anger but also has a quick wit. Of all my blessings, he is the funniest and I never know what will come out of his mouth next. He has taught me that there is always room to love one more and I cannot imagine my life without him.